We think we have time.
One of the many many things I probably am most guilty about is pulling a rain check. Never ever on purpose, always believing we have time and although that cup of coffee was important, something is..more important. It sneaks up on you and makes it to the top of the priority list. WORK, constantly finds itself up there.
Seriously though, how is work always sneaking up and biting us up in the ass and how are we always so wiling to let it do just that?
I never gave anything I could not see with my own two eyes the time of the day (i.e horoscopes, tarot cards bla bla bla absolutely no offence to those who do, is cool). First things first… who is this guy behind these recycled papers telling me what’s going to happen to my life in the next week, how does he know these things and if he does can he show me the way to idk whatever it is at the end of the road already…and secondly why does a sun with a smiley face represent anything more than sun…with a smiley face? #legitq
My mouth will come to haunt me back one day, and right now is that day.
Many many MANY years ago… I accompanied a friend to this South African festival something whatsoever in London and there was a tarot card reader who has been in the block for ages (so it seems). I was hungry, it was raining a little and a huge person in an ugly costume thought it’ll be funny to chase me around..so the shelter of the tarot card reader really did seem like the best option.
Fast forward I was persuaded to read my whatdaya call it…future? in my cards.
Granted she really did not even want me to pay so why not.
Fast forward to whatever she deciphered from my card: I apparently am always chasing something, deep down I want to chase what truly matters but I always end up chasing success..solo success. (WHAT DA HECK IS SOLO SUCCESS?). Do it long enough she said, I will find myself able to see the world and no one to see it with. Do it long enough she further said, I’ll forget what I now stand for: To find a love so deep the ocean would be jealous. (OH NOSEE!).
Glass half full: Believer or not yeah, when you hear these things said about you, you will snap out of it! You’ll try your hardest to not be exactly that. So maybe…it wasn’t so bad after all an ugly costumed person decided to come after me, or that it rained… or that I was so hungry i needed a breather. It now does not even matter that I am a non believer of card reading because the eventual result is me trying to chase the better more lasting form of happiness this world has to offer. I do that now. That’s where time comes into place.
What a shame yet what a blessing we humans are such mortals that with time, we will cease to exist on the face of this earth. Shame because of all the things we want to do yet time is so limited. Shame that there are so many books I would love to devour in my own pace yet I’ve got an alarm clock to set. Shame that we live in such a world that we’ve got a ticking body clock forcing us to find love even when the love is not there. Shame, really.
What a blessing this existence of time can be.
Blessing that with the knowledge that nothing lasts forever and we mortals are living in the mercy of time, we will hopefully not take anyone for granted. We’ll make it in time for coffee with those whose time are just as limited as ours. We will strive to live to the fullest, to love with all our hears, to make it count. To chase what truly matters.
Funny. Time. A double aged sword.
How does work sneaking up, rain check, tarot card reading and us being mortal makes sense that I am putting it all together: Today, I don’t let work sneak up on me, I make choices, I barely ever pull a rain check unless I am sick because..TIME. Because I do not want to be able to see the world but see it alone, I want to see the Subang Jaya lake, and not be alone. I want something greater than a list of titles on my name card.
(Now, its 2017,nobody come after me with a broom stick on fire for sitting through a tarot card reading yeah? Sekian.)
P/s: GO HUG THE HECK OUT OF THE MORTALS THAT MATTER.